Saturday, December 19, 2009
{ Saturday, December 19, 2009 }
Well basically i`m freaking bored thts why i`m posting two times. This is what happens when u update ur blog in the middle of 2-3 am and when u having nothing to do at 5pm. Haks , i`ll be going down to meet viinod soon , catch up. Had fun last night , kiran , my brother and karthik . We were up playing Monopoly . ! haks wth right ! It was awesome though , like i wasn`t concentrating , was more into taking webcam pics of myself. before the monopoly , kiran and my bro were playing the ps3 while i was using karthik`s msn and chatting to half of his friends. Used his facebook account to write me comments : D so evil right ? . hahaks , DEAL WITH IT ! Kiran went back around 4.45am plus , the rest played till 6am in the morning , then karthik left and i went to my room and started thinking of certain stuff which really hurt , after 10 mins or so , i fell asleep : D . Woke up at freaking 4pm sia. Well had shower , ate then watched tv , planning to go down soon. I might be gg bowling tomorrow with the entire family , dad`s idea cause of the N lvl thingie , cousins agreed to it , so yeah we`ll see ? .If you read this .
I am hurt , infact very hurt , but if this is what you really want then i guess i can`t do much.
I don`t want to be a leech and beg you to give this a chance . Though i just want to say a last thing.
You`ll never know if you can commit to something unless you try
Don`t give urself a chance in the future to look back and say , what if i had give us a try .
Now that`ll suck. I have already done everything i could in this , so i`m backing out.
I already told you , christmas . Though all this tht has happened , i`ll still wait till christmas.
After that , you can live your life the way you want to and i`ll live mine the way i want to.
I have learned that goodbyes will always hurt , pictures will never replace having been there , memories good and bad will bring tears and
Words can
NEVER replace feelings.
Being hurt by someone you truly care about leaves a hole in your heart that only love can fill.
It`s weird when i know the end of something great is coming , but i still want to hold on , just for one more second just so it can hurt a little more.
You know me more then you think you know , just as you know less than you want to know.
I`v been hurt that one time where the place tries to heal a bit , but i just pull the scar off of it over and over again.
It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.
Here`s a classic one i just thought of
; If i never met you , i wouldn't like you. If i didn't like you , i wouldn`t love you.
If i didn`t love you i wouldn`t miss you. But i did , i do & i will.
My friend once told me that ; Love is when you shed a tear and still want him , it`s when he ignores you and you still love him , it`s when he loves another girl but you still smile and say i`m happy for you when all you actually do is cry.
yeah i`m smiling but deep down inside damn , i`m dying.
I think i`ve over expressed how shitty i`m feeling and that`s all for today.
This isn`t to make you feel guilty , it`s just how fucked i`m feeling and i dont think i should hide my feelings as this is my only way of expressing myself.
With No love ,SharenCAUR.
